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Monday, May 21, 2012

End of Maternity Leave

Tomorrow is the big day...

I'm definitely having mixed emotions about returning to work. Don't judge this post--I'm being completely honest so that when I look back I remember exactly how I feel during this time.

Deep down I know that I would not be completely fulfilled being a stay-at-home mom.  But that doesn't mean I'm not dreading tomorrow.  Terrified.  Guilty.  Sad.  I'm a bit of a workaholic (at least I can admit that!) I only hope that I can find the positive in returning to work full-time.  Part of me wishes that I could work just 4 days a week BUT I love my job and that's just not a feasible solution at this time.  I hope that I can be a role model for Stella.  I want to show her that women can be successful and great mothers (have it ALL!)  I worry that I will be distracted at work thinking/worrying about Stella.  I pray that I can find balance:)
I'm trying to see the positive in everything.  I think it will be good for Stella to attend daycare and have social interactions with other kids.  The daycare that she will be attending is very good.  I've heard great things about how kids that attend this daycare perform in school later, etc.  Anyways, that doesn't mean that I don't worry and feel guilty.  Sometimes I think the best thing for a baby is to be with her parents.  However, this works and is best for our family!

So I spent my last day cuddling, snuggling and playing with my little precious baby girl.  I just wanted the clock to stop:)  I didn't want to let her out of my sight or my arms!  I am having to share her tonight with Adam.  We did meet Adam for lunch today to celebrate my day with Stella and here are a few pictures.




Off to get some extra snuggles..Wish me luck tomorrow!

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